One Day at a Time

Some of us in the fellowship have "perverted this truth". No where in the big book does it state I won't drink today, but maybe I will tomorrow. The big book says there must be "no lurking notion that I can be immune to alcohol". (pg 33) It says "we are like men who have lost our legs; we never grow new ones" (pg 30)

The big book refers to a "24 hour reprieve, contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition." (pg 85) Notice is doesn't say contingent on our spiritual condition. It says if I take the actions everyday to maintain my spiritual condition. I will not have the desire to drink. Thank God for that! My perception of my spiritual condition is based on thoughts and feelings. Thoughts and feelings are not important. Right action and the results of taking right action is all that matters. That is so powerful to me, for action is where the rubber meets the road. Action results from a decision being made.

My Higher power honors action, my Higher Power keeps me sober... Whether I am believing it on any given day doesn't matter... Doing the deal keeps me connected...

How it works

It works well. I have been rocketed into a 4th dimension. Not always feeling that way, but always knowing that my Higher Power is with me. What a powerful piece of information that is. That single fact makes me happy, joyous and free when I take the time to remember it. I have to make my conscious contact and I have to sacrifice self and work with others to make it grow. When I am living in this truth, when my perceptions are not skewed, by lifes ups and downs, I can rest my Spirit in God's and the results are literally out of this world. "Just to the extent that we do as we think He would have us, and humbly rely on Him, does He enable us to match calamity with serenity" (BB pg 68) I don't keep me sober, God does... I don't provide my own peace, God does...

Out of self

Selfishness and self centeredness, this is the root of my problems. But what to do about it... I like being all wrapped up in myself. How can I get more of what I want? How can I work this, so I end up OK. Thinking of the other person is not my strong suit. In fact I suck at it. But it is getting better. The only time I am not way too self involved, is when I am working with someone else. This is the only way I can reach that state of not thinking about me. Whether I want to do it or not, I force myself to because the other option is to quit growing spiritually, get drunk and die. Since I have been working with others though, I find myself wanting to do it more, to have that "high" of watching someone else grow. Like everything else in the program, if I do it even when I don't want to it works... Yeah God!!!

My Group

I love my Group. There is something about being able to walk in our little building and be surrounded by relatively happy sober people that actually love me. I don't know what normal folks do to gain this feeling. I have witnessed some wonderful and some tragic things with my Group. But through it all they are still my Group. My Higher Power, my late Sponsor, my Sponsor, my Group, my Family, they all had hope for me when I had no hope... Life is full, my heart is full, Thanks God...

In God's Care

Thank you God, for always watching out for me, and then watching me fumble around and try to take credit. Today "Thy Will be done"...

Out of words - Take action

When I am all out of words, when all the tears have been spilled, when I have no energy, when I want to hide from everything and everyone, when the waves of depression seem to want to wash me away into a sea of despair... Then I must take simple actions. This is the only way I know for peace to return. Take the simple actions over and over again, until God's Spirit restores my sanity. Doesn't matter whether I believe it will help or not. Only matters that I do it.