My disease never ceases to amaze me. In the best of times I can start to think about the future. Before long I am worrying about the future and even though I started out with the best intentions, before I have been thinking very long I am full of fear (about maybe I won't get what I want) and then resentment (because now I am sure that I didn't get what I wanted in the future and it hasn't even happened yet).
The only way out of this mental pit for me is working with another alcoholic. Then I realize I have what I need to do God's Will at this very moment. And this very moment is all I will ever have. We read it every night "may you find Him now". That is where my Higher Power lives NOW. And then I remember that the things I want are what kill me. True happiness and contentment come from doing God's Will, not seeking what I want.
My disease amazes me it is cunning, baffling, and powerful. But there is One who has all Power. That one is God, may we all find Him NOW.
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A record of thoughts and discoveries found along the spritual path of a recovered alcoholic and addict...
About Me
- Jerry G.
- I am a grateful recovered alcoholic/addict. I have had a spiritual awakening as the result of working the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. The obsession to drink and use has been removed. This site is simply a way to share my experience, strength, and hope with others afflicted with this disease. Hope it helps someone. I know it helps me!!!
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